ok.. timeout for muah

The thing that is bothering me most right now, is the film on t.v... jarhead..i'm not a fan of action /war films.. i think there sad, so i hate watching them.. in any case my weekend "grounded" so to speak is turning out to be ok or better than expected, i hardly spent time at home.. though i missed hanging out with asian, i did however catch up on some homework i had neglected for like three weeks now.. also, i had alot of time to myself.. which is nice because i slept alot, and i feel awesome now, very relaxed.. so anyway what is/was really bothering me was the fact that i could still get "grounded" i'm almost eighteen (my birthday being two weeks away) and i can still get grounded.. it bothers me more than anything else to date..
ahh well the joys of being underaged and under appreciated.. i want to watch choke i hear it's good.. and it's by the same guy who wrote fight club so might be good.. want to read the book now!

continuation

i didn't my first blog so this a continuation. so were was i? oh yeah the crazy dude... well know u now what i have to sort of put up with. and i don't get it, whenever he's around me he hardly talks, he tottaly ignores me sort of, i see hime stealing glnaces and that's worse than actually talking to me because i feel watched. worse yet whenever i'm not around he talks to my friends (we have mutual friends) all about me as if he knows me.. according to my lovely asian he's always talking about me so that my friends(and their friends) anne u know what i mean, get bored about hearing about me... so 27 yr old, no job, dosen't go to school, and then some.. yeah no.. so i came up witha master plan as me and asian like to call it "the blond asian master plan to get rid of the creppy old dude" ok maybe i exaggerated with the creepy old guy but you catch my drift. so asian asked one of her friends, who coincedentaly i like (alot) if he would be my internet boyfriend... wiffey says this is good becuase i know fianlly have the guts to tell him that i like him, subtely but surely i will ask him on a date, it's a little like a love triangle only that one person is in love, one wants another ,but dosne't love him, and the other is perfectly clueless.. get it? good! not only am i discouraging the other guy i am also making the moves on the other guy h=who is my age cute and quite and shy and tottaly my type he's funny and he lives in a cage(over protective parents) and he babysit we could do it together. *sighs* yeah i like him... oh well .. the main goal however is to discourage the first guy... that's the goal... yeah.. i'm such a fucking bussy bee no? so whenever i see people and they ask how's life? or my fav.. how's your love life? let's just say i live life with hand tied and a open mind, love life, unwillig chastity belt that can come off anytime.. =]
yes friends a horndog am i... or so says wiffey... that whore.. i love her.... sort of anyway....
ahhh... life, love, friends, age, music, tv......i love it all,... maybe cuz i'm listening to coldplay?
moody me? yes yes i am...
in any case if the grand master plan fails i always have a backup plan,, it's called "pretending i have a lesbian lover" dman i love pink yes asina i am listening to pink's "so what" hhaha i love's it! so now u know my predicament.. it's messy my life and yes i'm used to it.. but i can say this i cna't wait to leave this place, but school comes first.. once i can drive i'll see where i go from there... asian said she would come today, she might come becasue i promised to help her with the props.. song's finished so i'm going now.. going....... going............ gone.

lio

after like forever of not writing a blog it's about time i do.. so i have had a hell of a month... starting with of course how i hated october because of course every one decided to be born on that stupid month, ironically of course the people born on october i usually love the most. Anyway october was a really nice month for me, it was of course full of birthdays but i did have a lot of fun getting jasmine drunk damn that was hilarious, she was so fucking lost that steward had to take her home. then there was my dad's birthday, in which we all got together and it was very nice because the whole family got together as well as for my grandmothers birthday. anyway then on halloween we went out to celebrate my friend's birthdya.. which of course would happen, on that topic i should add that i have to admit that i didn't believe that i would keep in touch with ceartin friends... especially with like some one that i didn't really talk to.. but there it is.. besides whn i graduated high school i thought i would only keep in touch via myspace. for example when i graduated high school i thought i would only hang out with my godsister, jasmine(of course) and maybe anne whenever i saw her i thought it would be mostly through myspace, and maybe see her once or twice a month or something, but as it turns out i see her at least once a week, i mean not only does she (obviously) like to hang out with me, and i love hanging out with her and frank, bt i live five min. away from her boyfriend where she is staying.. it's ridiculously awesome! but it's good and we alwyas have fun one way or another so it works.. but yeah so i got into a lil' prob on halloween, this guy, well he likes me and i mean super de duper likes me, almost like an infatuation.. anne says he fell in love , i think it's infatuationm at least he dosen't call me or stalk me. but yeah i don't like him that way. and if it hadn't been for frank i would prolly never have made friends with him. mainly because he is a 27 yr old, a avid star wars trivia questioneer, and of course he is on meds adn seeing a therapist.. gee ain't i lucky?
i like that fact that he liked me the way i am and all that jazz but would i be a huge bitch if i said that i dont like him the way he is.? well in any case i am being honest.. ahh well .. shit happens