Lesson Learned

Lessons learned are lessons lived. there is so much to say about this year, but some are too long and a wee bit hurtful to talk about. Others remain like flies forever buzzing in my mind. The things that have happened to me this year are unforgettable and some unforgivable, but one moves on. for good or for bad things unravel the way they do, I was caught in a storm of stolen emotions and I knew that I had to let go but didn't know how. Today I finally came to realize somethings. First: things happen the way they do, because sometime one is to busy slumbering in contentedness and you start slowly losing control of who and what you are. Secondly: Time heals all wounds and though you have the scars they are a reminder to be careful for next time. Thirdly: in the end its never about the people who were in your life, or who left your life , or the has beens its about those that you go back to at the end of the day. Fourth: remembering who you are and never forgetting your self is so important. Fifth: Amazing people are just waiting for you to discover them and you cant let what people have done to you get to you. Move it, move it, move it. And lastly Sixth: when you've been wronged, just wait it out and let them tell you what you did wrong and if you can fix it hurrah, if not if no one bothers then hurrah, thats it. I've meet some incredible people these past four months and I owe them my current happiness. So on to next year and see what it brings. Out with the old in with the new=]

Feburary Madness,.. so i start the school year in a flury of anticipation, i know what i am doing, i know what i want and mostly i like how things are going, what could change is my grade in my math class, although improved from the last time i took this stupid math course, it isn't an "A" which is what i freaking want more than anything. i want for myself to be able to pass math and just move on with my life. Now what i have learned for sure about myself this month is that i am not as strong willed as i thought i was and that i can no longer pull an all-nighter i used to be able to stay fully awake and write a paper and still have energy, but now has age interrferred? i can no longer stay awake till two writng a paper? not even a 200 word paper. i worry about myself.

my life now, is a little bit drastic, things are different, of course i still love the same people, but now i also find myself missing them more. i miss Nannie, because we used to see each other every single day of the week, i miss Bertha because sundays i now have nothing to look forward too. i miss Jasmine because although we were on break in our so called marriage. lol annalment? we have re-kindled our romance.lol i miss Fenela i miss her wise counsel and picking that girl at the train station, i miss David and even though he lives close it's still a hassel to go out besides, he makes me miss Nannie even more. oh March the only good thing about you is that by the end my besties will be ever so much closer. i predict that by the end of march i will be a much happier person. March has been hectic. i mean too much for me. i have only just settled into my slow routine class wise. i have been outthere, on the subject. let me just point out that the March 4,2010 education rally was not what i had expected. let me tell you my experience and how profoundly annoyed i was with the whole thing.

so i go to this rally, because it is a class assignment. i wanted to go home and it seemed like a sign from the gods that i should because my professor let us out early. but alas i went to this rally for i had never been in a real rally before. (i know this coming from a perosn that has lived in L.A. her whole life.) Anyway so i go to this rally expecting so much. for starters the train got stuck, they were congested, there was traffic in the underground!!! then we got of ( i was accompanied by two classmates.) there was a fantastic energy in the air, everyone was excited and ready to make this peaceful rally work. well i was marching the street for a good half hour, when me and a classmate decided to investigate this table, for our prospective good interviees. however a tall gentlemen (and that is all i will say about him) started knkocing thier work table because they hada picture of president Obama with a hitler mustache. well he also started hitting people and that was when someone called the cops. Well the cops were doing thier job which was to protect the mases of peaceful ralliers.

2010, the start of a brilliant year!

2010 2010, oh what an amazing January. So i start the year with a lot of adventures under my belt it is February now and tommorrow is Valentine's. I got my computer fixed and i started school. Say hello to the new studious me. However there were some things that transpired that i should inform the audience about. Well in the first week of January Fatty Patty whom i have talked about did something not so nice. in fact the post "i laugh at her lies." is about what she has done. You see for years i thought she was a very good friend of mine. She made me laugh and through many parties was my avid dance partner. However she has shut me out of her life. Cyberly she has deleted me. In church she has ignored me. I am done with this girl i was so overwhelmed when i found out she had deleted me. I didn't know what to think. I asked Nannie, she said why was i surprised, I didn't know how to answer her. But moving on, Januray also became the month that i spent less time at home. I spent two weeks in Clairmont and one er half at Riverside with Nannie. We went out every weekend. Mostly to the Denny's to have late night dinners. We travelled the streets of LA. We drove through Hollywood more times than anybody should. Bertha, went to Berkely i miss her. She made Sundays awesome. Nannie and David are going strong and i can't imagine her with the "F" word even though i was present for a year of it. David might be oblivious to the mainly obvious..(and he calls me ditzy) but he can read Nannie very well and is in touch with her feelings, as corny as it sounds. Fenela, finally came around. Everything is as it should be. Although i am starting to believe that i should reconnect with some of my other friends, i fail to do so. i have also discovered thriough many months of hard intense labor. ok just kidding. that i believe my aunt is having an affair witha married man. i think she believes she is lying to me, but no, i have always said that i am more observant than i seem. In any case, there is more. I found alot about myself, i can't keep a promise to myself, i don't neccessaraily know what i want half the time and lack of food makes me dumb. January was amazing.
Febuary 02/08/10
the first day of school i had
music 101: learning to read music
Eng 206: english literature, romantcism, the victorian age, and englitenment periods.
Eng 204: world literature, volume two
Sociology: because i have too, study of human cultures in groups and such
Math 115: elementary algebra
and last but not least:
Eng 127: creative writing.
i looooove my eng classes.. i swear we eng. majors we move in packs
however i was not to fond of my music class so i dropped it. let me also say that i know at least one person in each of my classes even 127.
i know many in math in sociology and well i even knew people in my music class..
it is going to be a hectic semester but i am willing to make it a damn good one wish me luck .