Seriously??

Over the course of my life i have gathered (as most everyone does) a couple of people who really wouldnt care if i was alive or dead. I can count these people on one hand. Name 1 and Name 2. I don't know why they hate me, but i have a good idea. Now there are those that hate me by association, and that, well that can't be helped. Name 3, Name 4 and Name 5. See i protect my friends and as a result i get backlash, but like i said i don't care. Hate is an emotion generated by an intense feeling toward another individual perpetrated by an absence is therefore substituted into an enraged anger. Now having said that, I also want to say that Name's 1,2 and 3 all loved me or wanted me at some point. I ain't calling myself a player, just stating a fact. Name 3 and 4 well they loved or wanted a friend. The friend loved me (nothing sexual) but intense closeness is coveted to the Name's.... I don't like drama, i don't like to argue i like everyone to be at peace and just enjoy the things others take for granted, but no one fucks with me. I've been to hell and back, and i will cut you if hurt my happiness or others. ... SOoo here's what i think on girl's or guys, people who stalk.
 You are vengeful and pathetic, you have little regard for anything that is of consequence and your self -esteem is so low you don't even know what pride feels like any more. You lack love, emotional support and true friends. I pity you, i do not hate you, but i do pity you and the envy you carry like a gigantic shield. I can't begin to explain how sad it is, to watch you degrade into the slimiest worm, when you pretend to be so high and mighty above everyone. You think revenge is a solution and you hack and you make life hard, but karma's a bitch and it will bite you in the ass so hard, you won't feel it's sting until your in a hole so deep, you can't breathe.  You haven't grown out of your backwards ass high school mentality and you graduated half a decade ago. your still a child and you lack growth and thats prolly why you have some stupid ass friends.  I wish you luck in your miserable life, because at the end of the day when your done pretending ,you cry yourself to sleep or wake up drenched in sweat the nightmare still in your head and you don't know why, you know you did wrong. While i remain a fixture of your ever present hate because you can't move on with your life, you'll be a forgotten memory in mine and well i just won't remember your name.
So do either of two things. 1. Leave me the fuck alone and try to move on with your life. Get over whatever it is you have a problem with and think about your future happiness. or 2. continue fucking with me, but know this, i don't do revenge, but i do get justice one way or another. Karma's a bitch motherfucker=]

Day 32: American Beauty

American Beauty: 1999 : Winner of the 72nd Academy Award

Starring:

Kevin Spacey ... Lester Burnham

Annette Bening ... Carolyn Burnham

Thora Birch ... Jane Burnham

Wes Bentley ... Ricky Fitts

Mena Suvari ... Angela Hayes

Chris Cooper ... Col. Frank Fitts, USMC

Peter Gallagher ... Buddy Kane

Allison Janney ... Barbara Fitts

Scott Bakula ... Jim Olmeyer

Sam Robards ... Jim Berkley

Barry Del Sherman ... Brad Dupree

I love this movie because it introduced audiences into a world completely different than the one we are all accustomed to. So Lester is a man who has lived his life according to all the conventional rules and ideals of society only to find himself, unhappy and quite worthless. His wife is a beautiful picture with a bit of mold on the inside, the woman's stark raving mad if you ask me. And his daughter Janey is a social misfit with an askew view on society, yet trying her hardest to conform. These are all the intertwined points on one of the century's most acclaimed pictures. I watched this because a friend lent it to me and I watched it with my parent's. If you have ever seen it you know how uncomfortable I must have been, but despite that I loved it. I just bought it recently and I’ve already watched it twice. Also I have never looked at a red rose, that could possibly be an American Beauty the same way ever again. That scene where he imagines her in rose petals from the ceiling, I thought was just so …. oh man it was great. It captures the true nature of passion and unrestrained imagination. If you haven't watched this movie, you can't have lived, it is beautiful and poignant, everyone must watch!

It also won awards for:

Best Director,

Best Actor :Kevin Spacey

Best Original Screenplay

Best Cinematography