R.I.P Kindle

Last Saturday as I was doing laundry I put my kindle in my hamper and I washed it, yes ladies and gentlemen I am a huge jackass. I loved my kindle more than one should love such objects, but if you had one you would understand! That kindle was my life, it literally never left my side, if it did it was because where I was going was to dangerous to take. I could not risk it's life. I had all my life inside that kindle. Now I feel so empty, there is nothing I can even begin to compare to my beloved kindle. My blackberry used to be on this pedestal but once I stupidly erased the mobi reader app and have not been able to install it on the new blackberry I am stuck in limbo with that piece of crap. My kindle allowed me to be part of the app crowd. Now I have nothing to divert my time with, no more candy crush, song quiz, plants vs. zombies, star girl, unblock me. no more alarm, no more really cool comforting rain sounds to put me to sleep! Its all very sad and so I ask you to join me in the moment for my kindle. .

Ironically all my  kindle pictures where on the kindle. so this is the one I had I tried to get a new one this holiday season (black Friday and cyber Monday) but for some reason it was like 3 times this price so I said nels.

here's what my beloved looked like

Breaking Dawn Part : way too fucking many

Before you all say anything I was forced to watch this... i hate my life.

Breaking Dawn Part 2

Kristen Stewart as Bella Cullen

Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen

Taylor Lautner as Jacob Black

Mackenzie Foy as Renesmee Cullen

Ashley Greene as Alice Cullen

Maggie Grace as Irina

Michael Sheen as Aro

Peter Facinelli as Carlisle Cullen

Elizabeth Reaser as Esme Cullen

Jackson Rathbone as Jasper Hale

Nikki Reed as Rosalie Hale

Kellan Lutz as Emmett Cullen

Jamie Campbell Bower as Caius

Dakota Fanning as Jane

Christopher Heyerdahl as Marcus

Billy Burke as Charlie Swan

For a twihater like myself this was fucking ridiculous.. this one girl is a vampire but she wasnt and then like she gets some weird roman vampires pissed so they have to take a stand and then there is a huge war but wait its a fucking vision and the reason they are fighting is this tiny lttle girl who grows at the speed of light but who's already been promised to someone form birth. This is just fucking ridoncs. Let me tell you something, I gave twilight a chance in high school. I read the first book and the second because the first one, I thought oh she'll (Stephnie Meyer) get better with time. I was sorely dissapointed and then the same person who made me watch the first one made me watch the last one... the same fucking thing I was litterally annoyed and bored out of my mind. This time i took my little brother and he made me laugh my fucking head of so while everyone else was sad or pissed i was dying of laughter at my 7 yr old bros faces.. I pissed of my friend and i felt my life was complete, fucking make me watch kristen stewart act i'd take Lindsay Lohan in "I know who killed me" any day over that.... Don't fucking watch this crap. Its all a fucking joke, even the actual movies end is a fucking joke. Added, Michael Sheen is a joke as a vampire he looks fucking ridiculous, stick to the Underworld Series, he makes a far better werewolf.

Charlie/Ralfie...

Yesterday one of my biffles called me to tell me her sisters life long best friend died. I had briefly met him when we had all gone to Disneyland together about two to three years back. Actually he was the one that got us the tickets. Well anyway he took me along and sooner rather than later, i felt at home sitting in a car with practically total strangers. I only knew my biffle and her sister and even then i barely knew her. Charlie made me feel right at home and he was so nice. i was sad when they dropped me off, because i knew i wouldn't see him, unless they *my biffles family* had a huge party  or other social event. I didn't even facebook him which sounds ridics but maybe i should have i don't know. About a month ago my friend told me that he wasn't doing so good and that he was on his deathbed. i can't explain it to you but it made me super sad i almost wanted to cry. yesterday she called me crying and said he was dead. again i wanted to cry and this time i did. I shed a few tears and then i pondered why did this make me sad. I didn't even cry when my uncle died in January  however i figured it out quick. Last august was  my little godbrother Ralf's 1st anniversary of death. i had spent weeks in the families home preparing for the event and when i was finally at home i was a mess. i wanted to be home, i wanted to cry all the time and i swear death was all around me. It was the aftereffects of the week. i wish i had cried more, i think i would have felt the impact less. So as i was messaging back and forth with my friends sister she said "You have no idea what it feels like to lose your friend" i didn't say so but the truth is i do. Ralfie was my friend, my brother, my cousin. he was like family to me. And when he died i didn't know how to react so i kept busy and i would cry in public places when i would see a funny picture and think i should text it to him and then remembered i would get no reply. i would cry whenever "Someone like you" by Adele played (and sadly it played a lot) because that's the song i fell asleep to it the night he died, crying and feeling abandoned. It was hard, and im sure it would have been harder if he had died in a painful way, but i thank god he was merciful and took him at his greatest hour. i didn't want to write the day of his anniversary because i thought i could avoid  it. i couldn't because here i am almost exactly 2 months later and writing about him. i miss him today more than i did yesterday. Everyday i grow more at peace with the idea of him being gone but it doesnt mean that he isnt gone. it means i miss him more as time goes by. i did  however fix the whole crying in public places thing. i don't cry when i see his face or when i speak of him. i still light a candle for him every 13th of the month and i still keep him in my prayers. i don't think that'll ever change. So today when someone i care about lost thier best friend, i know it sounds selfish, but i remembered the day i found out ralfie was dead. It just hurt and it felt kind of when you pick a scab. But scabs heel and your skin grows a little tougher and im hoping thats whats gonna happen. so rest in peace Charlie you were an excellent human being and i know your in a better place. Ralfie, what else can i say to i havent already? I miss you , i know your up there watching down on me and everyone you care about. i love you giraffa petacon... tu pinguina malhecha=]

Day 40: The Bridge on the River Kwai

The Bridge on the River Kwai: 1957: Winner of the 39th Academy Award

Starring:


William Holden as US Navy Commander/Seaman Shears

Alec Guinness as Lieutenant Colonel Nicholson

Jack Hawkins as Major Warden

Sessue Hayakawa as Colonel Saito

James Donald as Major Clipton

Geoffrey Horne as Lieutenant Joyce

André Morell as Colonel Hornsby

Peter Williams as Captain Reeves

John Boxer as Major Hughes

Percy Herbert as Private Grogan

Harold Goodwin as Private Baker


Well here's one movie where none of the main characters survive. It took me nearly an entire day to finish this movie. But I did it. And here's what I got to say about it. It had a very awesome soundtrack but it was by far unnecessarily long. I think it had something to do with thte way the movie began with a showmanship of British upstanding and pride and then he was in the oven for so long and .. well you can see how long the intro was. The end was quite good and I actually liked the ending, although I have to say, that stupid captain Nicholson was a real dud and possibly going through hostage loves kidnapper syndrome. He was trying to out the people that we're trying to help him escape, in what right mind does someone do that? He is crazy but I blame the Japanese commandeer. This movie was decent, but it doesn't really call my attention and I don't think I’d watch if it wasn't on the list. I swear War movies just suck and they are all pretty much the same. Thank the higher power that nowadays, most films aren't about war, because if they were they'd be sure to win. Look for example at the past 20 yrs. Of those movies 6 have been war related, three were actual war movies. It's like war movies were made for awards, truthfully I propose an incentive in the other direction, please for the sake of viewers, look at the brilliance of comedy, let go of the war worshiping past filmmakers!!.. On to the next war movie yawns.

It also won awards for:

Best Director :David Lean

Best Actor :Alec Guinness

Best Writing, Screenplay Based on Material from Another Medium :Michael Wilson, Carl Foreman, Pierre Boulle

Best Music, Scoring of a Dramatic or Comedy Film : Malcolm Arnold

Best Film Editing :Peter Taylor

Best Cinematography :Jack Hildyard

Day 22: Mrs. Miniver

Mrs. Miniver: 1942: Winner of the15th Academy Award

Starring:

Greer Garson as Mrs. Kay Miniver

Walter Pidgeon as Clem Miniver

Teresa Wright as Carol Beldon

Dame May Whitty as Lady Beldon

Reginald Owen as Foley

Henry Travers as James Ballard

Richard Ney as Vin Miniver

Henry Wilcoxon as Vicar

Christopher Severn as Toby Miniver

Brenda Forbes as Gladys - Housemaid

Clare Sandars as Judy Miniver

Marie De Becker as Ada - Cook

Helmut Dantine as German Flyer

John Abbott as Fred

I liked this movie, it was about a wonderful, super nice, super British lady named Mrs. Miniver. She was a symbol of everlasting hope and dream for the country she was in because she was kind and was the way a woman should be. Even under the pressures of war. Well she gave her husband and her son up for the war, let them be the soldiers God intended them to be. In the end the truth is that like the pastor said, the truth is that no one suffers like the innocent casualties of war, they are the true victims, women children and the old who are defenseless.. did you get bored yet? I did, it was pretty much how the movie went down, I understand why it won an award, because people got to talk like that, but it was tedious, and slow and I hated that .. had to die. It wasn't fair! It wasn't fair I tell you. But props to Greer Garson, she was soo on the spot. And I love the banter but cute lovey dovey banter between Mr.and Mrs. Miniver. It is one of those must watch once, but lets keep it to just once, shall we. 

It also won awards for;

Best Director: William Wyler

Best Actress: Greer Garson

Best Writing, Screenplay: George Froeschel, James Hilton, Claudine West, Arthur Wimperis

Best Supporting Actress Teresa Wright

Best Cinematography, Black-and-White Won Joseph Ruttenberg

Day 15: Ordinary People

Ordinary People: 1980: Winner of the 53rd Academy Award

Starring:

CastDonald Sutherland as Calvin Jarrett

Mary Tyler Moore as Beth Jarrett

Timothy Hutton as Conrad Jarrett

Judd Hirsch as Dr. Tyrone C. Berger

Elizabeth McGovern as Jeannine Pratt

M. Emmet Walsh as Coach Salan

Dinah Manoff as Karen Aldrich

Fredric Lehne as Lazenby
 

Ordinary People , was only a book when I read it. I never thought it could be a movie, of course I was 13 and what the hell did I know. Anyways I have sort of been putting off watching this movie because I didn’t want to shatter any illusions I had when I was reading the book. However I was remarkably pleased, they delivered the story like the book and the emotions I had only read about were now being acted and with such simplicity that I fell for it. This is one of the movies I want to own. I have already added it to my to get pile. It made me cry. I don’t know if it’s because I just had my cousin die, and kinda compared my godmother’s reaction to Mary Tyler Moore’s character but it just hurt when she couldn’t love Conrad. It hurt that she never tried to love him and that she cared only of herself and called everyone out on their selfishness. Truly liked this, must watch, with a box of Kleenex.

It also won awards for:

Academy Award for Directing - Robert Redford


Academy Award for Best Supporting Actor - Timothy Hutton

Academy Award for Writing Adapted Screenplay - Alvin Sargent