Midnight Banter

I'm listening to the rain fall outside my window and my fingers are itching to type on my now running laptop. So i decide to look back at my almost five years on Blogger. I was fucking stupid. Half of 2008 is misspelled and the other is so high school I want to kick myself in the crotch  Truth there are some insightful moments in those blogs, but the truth one gets better with age. you get wiser, you get smarter and you learn to hide identities. Furthermore I have also seen my progress, so i'm not that whiny anymore, I've grown. Sometimes it takes a little disheveling to grow up and I'm sad thats what it took

So in retrospect I want to see what I've learned this year. I've learned to let love in again and to not be so afraid of my imminent demise. Whatever happens happens and you have to trust that everything is going to be ok. I sometimes get to tense about certain situations and i'm starting to believe I have some control issues but i think that as an adult i can honestly say i need to chill the fuck out. I need to trust myself more, as well as push myself more. I keep making the same mistakes over and over again and I need a change. Sometimes i'm disgusted with myself and sometimes I'm proud of myself. Truth is, like everyone else, I have good days and bad days. 

Also I need to stop the relationship that might be growing between me and a certain engaged gentleman. No i don't have bad grammar but I use Me first, because me is the only one I can control. I need to stop looking for guys ( or at least stop being drawn to them) who have no interest in me. I need to quit it before one of them starts to date one of my friends. I need to look for a guy who likes me. Who says hey thats the kind of girl i usually date. Not she's something so different, so new, so not like what i see. That ends up bad and I'm labeled under friends and wondering what the fuck i did wrong. 

I need to stop posting movie reviews in an effort to make myself look and feel purposeful. I want to be somebody and i want to get things done, so i need to remove my mental blocking. 

Lastly I need to keep my friendships strong, I love them all dearly and I know what its like to lose a friend to words and miss-communications and whats its like to lose to death. And i don't want to lose my friends to any of the reasons. 

Mostly i need to remember, no matter what, Care for thyself, Trust Thyself and Love thyself 

Day 44: Crash

Crash: 2006: Winner of the 78th Academy Awards

Starring:

Don Cheadle

Sandra Bullock

Matt Dillon

Jennifer Esposito

Michael Peña

Brendan Fraser

Chris "Ludacris" Bridges

Terrence Howard

Ryan Phillippe

Larenz Tate

Thandie Newton

A series of interconnected lives through transparent means seem to be the leading basis for this movie. However this movie is more than just about how interconnected these lives are, but mostly about Human relationships and how society has ruined perfectly natural tendencies to just want to live in Harmony. Although one could argue that human nature also wants to feel pride and that’s where boundaries come in , but nevertheless this movie was great. I watched it on the television and the scene where the Hispanic father is saved by his 5 yr old daughter, made me cry so much I couldn’t stop. Imagine here’s a guy who’s had it rough, and he is being punished by this man because of his race, that was so riveting. I love this movie and even though Sandra Bullock was a downright git in this movie I totally loved her. Furthermore the small ironies of life where the guy who was abusing one person ended up saving her life that was so real. I was very happy when I saw them win and I felt that they truly deserved it. I don’t know if it’s just me but the seem to get better as they progress toward a better future in film. The turn of the century movie that started it “Dances with Wolves”. Crash really is a good movie with an unbelievable cast and maybe I love it all that more because one of the movies other star is my hometown of Los Angeles.

It also won awards for:

Best Editing: Hughes Winborne

Best Screenplay – Original Paul Haggis & Robert Moresco

Day 28: Gentleman's Agreement

Gentleman's Agreement: 1947: Winner of the 20th Academy Award

Starring :

Gregory Peck as Philip Schuyler Green

Anne Revere as Mrs. Green

Dorothy McGuire as Kathy Lacey

June Havoc as Elaine Wales

John Garfield as Dave Goldman

Albert Dekker as John Minify

Celeste Holm as Anne Dettrey

Jane Wyatt as Jane

 

 

I am super in love with Gregory Peck, ever since I watched “To Kill a Mockingbird”! In this movie he is a journalist who poses as a Jewish American citizen in order to fully understand what it means to be a Jew. Throughout the movie we see how people who have no idea he is Jewish sometimes change when they find out he is. Most of the movie is how his fiancé can't deal with it though and that just bored me.  What I will say is this, I live in California, this is Jew city and we love it. Especially since I live so close to Weho, I guess I never thought that they weren't always loved. I know it seems childish but I never knew that in America they weren't tolerated like the Irish Catholic's or the Chinese, I guess they teach you those things in high school eh?. Anyway the movie was pretty good, it was a little too much talking and to be honest I was really upset when Mr. Green didn't end up with Anne she was a real girl. Kathy was a bub, she talks to much and she isn’t even pretty! I liked the mom she was the driving force behind her son and I like strong maternal figures. It was a good movie but I took two naps. Just saying

 
It also won awards for:
 
Academy Award for Best Supporting Actress - Celeste Holm


Academy Award for Directing - Elia Kazan