Day 5: Five things that irritate you about the oppposite/same sex.

I'm not sure once again if this is one of those relationship type of questions so I shall answer both.

Opposite sex: 

1. When guys say "Why didn't you hit on him?" me: "because he's taken." guy friend: "so?" ... I don't know if its the guy friends that i have but this statement always worries me. It makes me feel like neither of them take their relationships seriously and that they just want to fuck and that bothers me. Monogamy isn't fro everyone but if you're in a monogamous relationship then you better fucking respect the person you're with. 

2. Leaving the toilet seat up after males pee. There is nothing scarier when you're half asleep then taking a piss and the awful feeling of falling follows. ITS AWFUL!

3.When all males assume because you're friendly that you're automatically into them. Men are so vain, just because I'm happy to see you does not mean I want your penis inside me. The faster you learn this and think of me as a bro the better off we shall be.

4. When they insist on looking at you're tits while addressing a social, political or cultural stand/issue. It's like they don't care because I count as only an aesthetic principal. 

5.When they do stereotypical bro things, it breaks my heart I thought you were better than that dude! 

Same sex:

1. When women are all over a good looking guy and he isn't into her and she keeps insisting and cockblocking.. bro stop being thirsty take a hint and back off.

2. When girls drop their homegirls because they got into a relationship, like opps i'm sorry was I only a temporary distraction while you waited for you're "real life" to begin?

3. When girls get too catty about things they have been bottling up forever and then become passive aggressive... i include myself in this one. 

4. When they get mad that a dude didn't act a stereotypical way or say he wasn't man enough to do something ... how is society ever going to change if women can't propagate or support change?

5.When girls of this generation degrade themselves to continue in a relatinship that isn't working but fear being alone.. Dude woman the fuck up and face the fact that you outgrew the homeboy, find someone better and stop whining. God!

Day 4: What do you wear to bed?

This is a question? Seriously? Well fuck that is stupid and anti-climactic.

I could be cool and pull a Marilyn and say that I only wear chanel to bed. But lets be honest ... I wear old school t-shirts. I buy men's boxers or pj pants and use that as bottoms. Old tattered t-shirts become the new pj suit.Its sad but true ain't no one have time to look cute. 

Day 3: What kind of person attracts you?

I don't know what this means. Does it mean who I am attracted to on a friendship level or someone that I can see spending my life with as a partner?

I'll just answer both: 

A male that attracts me in one word: BALD. I have a thing for bald men, everyone knows it, everywhere I go. But personality I want a good guy, the nice guy that is usually overlooked by everyone, the shy one. That's the one. I'm loud and a know it all so i tend to be attracted to men who know very little about pop culture and social media, literature, film and art. I like guys who know about politics and science, because I don't know too much about it and I feel like its a good trade off. I've recently learned that I like all body types. 

As a person looking for friends. Man I'm open to everything. I like to find people who you can learn things from, some friends are the kind of people you know you will always have a good time with and then there are friends who you can bare your soul to and there is no judging. The only way I close myself off to people is if you are pretentious, selfish and demanding. 

Day 2: How have you changed in the past two years?

Loaded question. Let's start with stating facts. Two years ago I was 23. Two years ago this time of year I was living with my parents, finishing my requirements at LACC to transfer out of that place. Two years ago, everything was so normal that it almost makes me want to cry, not that I am not appreciate that things have changed and that I am where I am. I have been very blessed, things have gone so beautifully and everything that I have accomplished I have been able to do independently as well as I have proven to myself that I can do things. However I know the issue I'm skirting. This year I lost someone I loved, this year I lost one of the women that helped form me as I grew up. It's hard to exactly pinpoint how much I loved her, perhaps it's one would feel for like an aunt who always had your back or a grandma who would always comfort you mixed with a mother's unconditional love. She was all of that. I have been very fortunate and my mother has been amazing about sharing me with other people. Sandra was my best friends mom. We met a lifetime ago, back when I was 13 and for some unknown reason we began to befriend each other the way only immigrants can. We made a patchwork family, since the ones they loved were in a different country.  We shared holidays, graduations and birthdays together. Those moments of life that you celebrate and mourn, we had our share of exultation and celebration. Whenever we were together which was literally every weekend you could be sure that life was going to get crazy and fun. 2014 started off rough, Sandra was in an accident that we all thought would signal the end of her life. She had a 1% chance of living and I remember praying to God to not take her, to please let her live to see her grandson, which she had been awaiting anxiously for, to see me graduate and to see her daughter come back to Los Angeles. We said a lot of prayers 2014 and my family was very united. We celebrated the births of two little angels and I celebrated my commencement into adulthood. I finally transferred to a University and I now live on my own. During the summer when I moved back home, I got a job and I had a very good GPA. From 2013 to 2104 what I learned was to believe in myself that everything was going to be fine in time. Perhaps I had had to wait for certain things a little bit more but once you start the ball rolling everything just falls in line. I spent my summer of 2014 working and spending time with my loved ones and celebrating my beginning here at UCR. At UCR I learned that as much as I had wanted to be on my own, I missed my best friends and I had separation anxiety from Barbs which was hard to overcome but I'm used to it now. I still miss her but she's always the first person besides my parents that I go see whenever I go home. I had one goal for fall quarter since I felt so alone, make one friend a day. Damn did I fulfill my goal. I'm happy to say that I've not only found my niche but made for myself a little family. This time last year I was finishing my finals for the first quarter here and I was excited to go back home. 2015 found me hoping that things would be different, fuck I didn't know how different. Winter and Spring quarter found me experiencing new things with my roommates and the lovebirds while at home everything was awesome, Jamie, the newest addition to our family was the source of excitement. She had arrived on thanksgiving of the previous year, one day before my birthday! For some unknown reason she brought everyone closer together in away that we had not anticipated before. I could finally connect to my cousin. By the time I realized it was already the end of my first year at UCR. I had applied right before I left to work at Universal and I got the job. Now I had money for summer adventures. That was not like me of the past summers. I had money in my pocket and no school for the first time since I had been 20. I was living the life of an adult without bills. July had one gift to give me. In the first week of July my patchwork family always planned a trip to a little island near the OC called Balboa Island. The beauty of this place is that it is obvies far from the city, its a picturesque little town on the seaside. The kind of town you see in movies when they describe great summers. So every year we go, the kids always have fun, but sometimes the parents can't go and we never get to take a good family photo. This year we all went. Even little baby Jamie. The whole day was one of those days that you look around you and it has a haze. You clearly remember everything that was said, all that you heard, the way everything tasted and most importantly how you felt. I hadn't been able to take a day off since i started work but this happened to be my ONE WEEKEND OFF. All the parents were able to go. With my cousins we swam in the ocean and then biked for hours throughout the entire island while the parentals discussed life, love and us annoying kids. I guess in hindsight it was our way of saying goodbye, our last goodbye to her. She died three weeks after this day. I had only lost Ralfie before this. But this loss hit me in a places I didn't expect. Perhaps it was the way she died. She was brain dead before she actually was pronounced dead. I had never seen my parents cry like that, they were mourning a friend and sister. She was their best friend. My cousin and her sister were distraught, and there was no hope for me to give them, I saw my aunts lose thier best friend the way my parents were. I saw my cousins feel the same helplessness I felt as we all tried to process this in our heads. She was the one who had always made us feel special and united, and we were going to lose her, there would be no stopping this eventuality. It was a hard pill to swallow. August was filled with me growing up and helping to prepare for the burial and viewing something I had learned from Ralife, however it was different because my cousin couldn't cope, as was somewhat expected. Later it was time for my youngest cousin and I to go back to school. My second youngest cousin haad her baby too look after and my cousin was left to put the pieces back together. I came back and here I am, at the end of he year. Sometimes I want to say I became wiser, truth be told, I did learn a lot. I learned I am very much family centered and that I love my friends. I miss those bitches more than they miss me (except for Barbie she is on my level) I can't manage money to well. Life is beautiful no matter how badly you want to just hide under the covers and cry. I guess I tend to be melancholic and nostalgic and it surprises people that know me as all they have seen has been my giddy and upbeat nature. As much as I don't realize it, I'm an optimist, an extrovert and apparently blunt. I am the girl you call to throw a good party or to have a one-on-one deep conversation with. I hate losing my best friends to a boyfriend but I'm not the kind of girl to be really vocal about it, because I've learned that people just have to learn lessons on their own. I guess honestly, in two years, I just became a rough draft of the person I'm going to be for the rest of my life. I will always grow as life is ever changing but there is always room for improvement. I guess this post is also a recap of 2014-2015 now, since there is alot on here. I hope I answered the question.

Day 1: Weird things you do when your alone.

Weird things I do when I'm alone? Oh for sure one of them has to be talking to myself. Like out loud. I am in constant conversation with myself, sometimes I'm relieving moments, mostly embarrassing ones and I facepalm, because I can't with myself and don't quite believe how deep my stupidity can go. Or i'll remember something really funny and start cracking up and then call myself a weirdo. Sometimes I'm creating dialogue for myself like the a narrator in a movie, you know like in The Holiday, when Amanda can hear the internal narrator and she tells him to shut up... something along those lines. Sometimes when I'm mad I yell at whoever i'm mad at and put them in their "place" a.k.a me winning an argument. Sometimes I catch myself behaving like if i'm being constantly watched or recorded, which is even weirder. I think the weirdest part about talking to oneself is when you get caught, I can't tell you how many times my parents have caught me in a debate, lecture, conversation, and storytelling to myself. God bless their souls all they do is laugh and go "we'll leave you to yourself." never have they thought I was crazy.  I've also noticed that when I'm in deep thought while writing I will randomly be grabbing my boobs, like cradling them, its weird and unconscious, but they're there and I guess I don't know what else to do with my hands. Lot of Sometimes in this post, and I think it's because everyday my mood varies. I'm pretty sure there must be some other weird thing I do, but it isn't weird to me so I can't exactly call myself out on it. 

30 day blog challenge...Because why the fuck not

So while procrastinating during finals week I ventured onto a little site called Pinterest. As I was scrolling down the list of pins I saw one that looked like fun. How much fun I'm going to have... IDK just yet. It was a blog challenge and considering I have radio silent for a while i thought it would be fun to come back to blogging with a challenge... hopefully one I will go through with... I will someday finish the OSCAR challenge.

Ok so here is the new challenge:

Let's hope i at least make it to Day 25

2015 has been both very good and very bad to me. So I want to see if by giving myself a question daily I will be able to connect once again to the writer I used to be. I still write but it isn't the kind of writing I used to do and sometimes I think it was the personal writing that helped me cope with my evolving self. It could just be me but I want to get back to doing that. I recently talked to a friend who went through a break up and how he wrote letters to his past girlfriends and apologized for his past mistakes. He considered it cathartic. I shall consider this blog challenge a letter to the past me introducing the new me and a requiem to future me, may I be smarter and wiser.

Golden Globes 2015

Its that tie of year again. Award season! Holy fuck I am so ecstatic, I'm finally on the train of the independent film. Don't get too excited I haven't actually seen any but I knew about the films before the award show so I could make some pretty excellent guesses (If i do say so myself.) Anyway this year was also a whole new watching experience for me, more on that in a later post. Anyway the films I have to say look pretty awesome; particularly the biopic "The Theory of Everything" and the magical realism "Birdman". I can honestly say that out of all the movies nominated this year I wanted to watch at least six; The Theory of Everything, The Imitation Game, Birdman, Boyhood and Into the Woods, The Grand Budapest Hotel. I had heard of at least seven: Selma and the remaining pretty much caught my undivided attention, Foxcatcher, Pride and particurlarly St. Vincent's.

There was a lot of awesome going around in the movie category as expected but there was also some awesome in the tv category specifically in the: house of cards nominations and the Downtwon Abbey and American Horror Story departments. Without further ado here are the nominees and subsequent winners.

Btw:

I predicted but I was a little late in posting so figured that posting a prediction list was probs not the best idea. In any case i'll highlight what I wanted to win and what I never saw coming. If I got it right you'll know because there is no rant next to the name.

Best Motion Picture, Drama

Boyhood

Foxcatcher

The Imitation Game

Selma

The Theory of Everything

Best Actress in a Motion Picture, Drama

Julianne Moore

(Still Alice)

Rosamund Pike

(Gone Girl)

Reese Witherspoon

(Wild)

Felicity Jones

(The Theory of Everything)

Jennifer Aniston

(Cake)

Best Actor in a Motion Picture, Drama

Eddie Redmayne

(The Theory of Everything)

Steve Carell

(Foxcatcher)

Benedict Cumberbatch

(The Imitation Game)

David Oyelowo

(Selma)

Jake Gyllenhaal

(Nightcrawler)

Best Motion Picture, Musical or Comedy

Into The Woods

Birdman

The Grand Budapest Hotel

St. Vincent

Pride

Note about this section, I wanted The Grand Budapest Hotel to win but didn't predict it since the giant was Birdman and i succumbed to the pressure. I'm really happy this won though! 

Best Actress In A Motion Picture, Musical or Comedy

Julianne Moore

(Maps To The Stars)

Amy Adams

(Big Eyes)

Emily Blunt

(Into The Woods)

Helen Mirren

(The Hundred Foot Journey)

Quvenzhané Wallis

(Annie)

Best Actor in a Motion Picture, Musical or Comedy

Michael Keaton

(Birdman)

Bill Murray

(St. Vincent)

Ralph Fiennes

(The Grand Budapest Hotel)

Christoph Waltz

(Big Eyes)

Joaquin Phoenix

(Inherent Vice)

Best Animated Feature Film

The Lego Movie

How To Train Your Dragon 2

Big Hero 6

The Book of Life

The Boxtrolls

Ok wtf HFPA!!?!??!? Did you not see the masterpiece that is Big Hero 6? I admit to not having watching this movie or its predecessor and I also admit to being Disney biased, however did they not see the visual perfection that is BIg Hero 6???? Its gold, everything about that movie was amazing the adaptation, the direction, the casting, the idea of SAN FRANSKOYO! FUCKIN BAYMAX!!!!

Just ughhh....

Best Foreign Language Film

Ida

(Ida)

Force Majeure

Gett: The Trial of Viviane Amsalem

Tangerines

Leviathan

I just randomly selected but didnt get lucky. lol

Best Supporting Actress in a Motion Picture

Jessica Chastain

(A Most Violent Year)

Keira Knightley

(The Imitation Game)

Patricia Arquette

(Boyhood)

Meryl Streep

(Into The Woods)

Emma Stone

(Birdman)

Honestly I think she should be rewarded she keeps getting nominated and always oh so close, however Patricia Arquette is not going to be back on this stage for awhile so I guess. Plus it was a decade and half long process of shooting. 

Best Supporting Actor in a Motion Picture

Ethan Hawke

(Boyhood)

Robert Duvall

(The Judge)

Edward Norton

(Birdman)

J.K. Simmons

(Whiplash)

Mark Ruffalo

(Foxcatcher)

Ok haven't seen "Whiplash" but that shit came from like out of fucking nowhere, no one could have predicted that JK Simmons, osea Juno's dad would win. Good for him but fucking weird. 

Best Director - Motion Picture

Ava DuVernay

(Selma)

Wes Anderson

(The Grand Budapest Hotel)

Alejandro González Iñárritu

(Birdman)

David Fincher

(Gone Girl)

Richard Linklater

(Boyhood)

Just a note I predicted this correctly but I secretly wanted to be wrong so Wes Anderson would win. 

Best Screenplay - Motion Picture

Wes Anderson

(The Grand Budapest Hotel)

Gillian Flynn

(Gone Girl)

Alejandro González Iñárritu, Nicolás Giacobone, Alexander Dinelaris, Armando Bo

(Birdman)

Richard Linklater

(Boyhood)

Graham Moore

(The Imitation Game)

Best Original Score - Motion Picture

Alexandre Desplat

(The Imitation Game)

Jóhann Jóhannsson

(The Theory Of Everything)

Trent Reznor, Atticus Ross

(Gone Girl)

Antonio Sanchez

(Birdman)

Hans Zimmer

(Interstellar)

Note I didn't guess correctly I accidentally skipped it and then when I saw it on the tube didn't bother to guess, however I will say this the winner is a total nube so I would have gone with Zimmer or Desplat as I love either of their works. 

Best Original Song - Motion Picture

Big Eyes

Selma

Noah

Annie

The Hunger Games: Mockingjay, Part 1

Honestly I love Lorde's "Yellow Flicker Beat" and I thought for sure it was going to win, however then I saw that Lana had done "Big Eyes" and I thought hmm Lorde has competition but woo forgot about John fucking Legend and the mastermind that is Common. Well played guys!

Best TV Series, Drama

Downton Abbey

The Affair

Game Of Thrones

House of Cards

Good Wife, The

This was another fucking surprise for me. I was on my couch and had a fucking heart attack. What the fuck is The Affair and how did it kick ass thrice, House of Cards on its second season and second time nominated, last year it only lost to the giant that is Breaking Bad, Downton Abbey now nominated at least three times and going into its fifth or sixth season, and Game of Thrones, in hindsight they're always nominated but never win. I was in shock, This show reminds me of Fargo i don't get the whole hype in the judges but I can now predict that they'll win everything. 

Best Actress in a TV Series, Drama

Viola Davis

(How to Get Away With Murder)

Claire Danes

(Homeland)

Julianna Margulies

(The Good Wife)

Robin Wright

(House of Cards)

Ruth Wilson

(The Affair)

Who the fuck is she, why did they give the award to the bitch with thee ugliest dress and why was she so awlward! Im over this show! I thought Robin Wright had it in the bag! Claire Underwood was so fucking spectaculart this season! Ughh my consolation is she won the year before and Viola Davis was the only one I thought who would give her a run for her money. Annoyed!

Best Actor in a TV Series, Drama

Kevin Spacey

(House of Cards)

Clive Owen

(The Knick)

James Spader

(The Blacklist)

Dominic West

(The Affair)

Liev Schreiber

(Ray Donovan)

Fucking yes! Finally

Best TV Series, Musical or Comedy

Orange is the New Black

Girls

Jane the Virgin

Transparent

Silicon Valley

I finally thought they had a chance but I forgot about Transparent which I can honestly say I'm ok that Orange lost to. I haven't seen it but the premise is pretty amazing also props to Amazon. 

Best Actress in a TV Series, Musical or Comedy

Julia Louis-Dreyfus

(Veep)

Edie Falco

(Nurse Jackie)

Gina Rodriguez

(Jane The Virgin)

Lena Dunham

(Girls)

Taylor Schilling

(Orange is the New Black)

I was pleaslntly surprised by this! Although I think that Edie Falco has long been overlooked Gina Rodriguez gave such an emotionally good speech that I was won. 

Best Actor in a TV Series, Musical or Comedy

Don Cheadle

(House of Lies)

William H. Macy

(Shameless)

Ricky Gervais

(Derek)

Jeffrey Tambor

(Transparent)

Louie C.K.

(Louie)

I had no particular favorite and didn't try and pick anyone would have gone with Cheadle if anything but I think that Tambor was the best choice. 

Best TV Movie or Mini-Series

Olive Kitteridge

Fargo

The Missing

True Detective

The Normal Heart

Best Actress in a Mini-Series or TV Movie

Jessica Lange

(American Horror Story: Freak Show)

Maggie Gyllenhaal

(The Honorable Woman)

Frances McDormand

(Olive Kitteridge)

Allison Tolman

(Fargo)

Frances O'Connor

(The Missing)

Why? Why? Why? Jessica Lange is perfection!

Best Actor in a Mini-Series or TV Movie

Martin Freeman

(Fargo)

Matthew McConaughey

(True Detective)

Woody Harrelson

(True Detective)

Billy Bob Thornton

(Fargo)

Mark Ruffalo

(The Normal Heart)

The HFPA loves Fargo and they Love Billy Bob Thornton so this was a given.

Best Supporting Actress in a Series, Mini-Series or TV Movie

Kathy Bates

(American Horror Story: Freak Show)

Uzo Aduba

(Orange is the New Black)

Joanne Froggatt

(Downton Abbey)

Michelle Monaghan

(True Detective)

Allison Janney

(Mom)

I always see Joanne or any of the ladies from Downton Abbey up here and I ignore them because even though I think they're fantastic the HFPA is not of the same mindset, I thought Kathy would take it since she took the Emmy or Aduba since it was her second nomination. I was ok being wrong. 

Best Supporting Actor in a Series, Mini-Series or TV Movie

Bill Murray

(Olive Kitteridge)

Jon Voight

(Ray Donovan)

Matt Bomer

(The Normal Heart)

Alan Cumming

(The Good Wife)

Colin Hanks

(Fargo)

I wanted him to win so bad! I didn't think he would but he finally did! Let me also say that I am so happy this mini series/tv movie finally won something! I thought it was sadly overlooked! 

Ok thats it for the Golden Globes for this year there was a lot missing from the show! 

Amy Poheler and Tina Fey did not have enough stage time and what they did they kind of failed thanks to the untimley Cosby jokes and Margaret Cho kind of upstaged them. The joke went to far and was way to long. Its sad that they went out like they did. It wasn't as bad as Anne hathaway and James Franco but hey we were all expecting a lot from them. Also there was no in memoriam on the year that we were going to (or supposed to see ) a tribute to two of Hollywood's greatest Robin Williams and Phillip Seymour Hoffman! 

Til next year!